I wrestled with writing this post and whether to even post it. It took a few drafts and edits. In the nearly 10 years of writing this blog (award nominated I’ll have you know), I never thought I’d be writing a post about my embarrassing and completely unhinged behaviour. But here we are. So strap in. ...
I’ve not been doing fine. I tell everyone “I’m fine” but the reality speaks very differently. This year has been possibly the hardest in terms of my emotional and mental wellbeing. I’ve struggled every day. Some days it just felt too much and I didn’t want to be here. I didn’t want to feel this...
To Arthur and Grayson. My boys. You made me an Auntie. The greatest gift you could have ever given me. A role that I have loved having every second so far. What you boys might never know is you also made me stay. Your parents fought hard to bring you here. They chose to love each...
I’ve lost the will to live. Not the will to be alive. I keep breathing in and out and I keep being alive but I’m not living. Not like I used to. I used to try to make the most of days and work trips. I wanted to enjoy every moment as much as I...
Once, twice, three times ghosted! Excellent. Granted, two of them then a few weeks later came back to apologise for ghosting me and of course included the “it’s not you, it’s me” line in one way or another. One of the guys is sadly Pete* from my last date. My first toe back in the...
Just keep going George. Carry on putting one foot forward and the other will always follow. I keep looking down at the ground and just watching my feet move heavily over the rocks and snowy path. The sound of my deep breathing fills my head and I can feel my chest trying so hard to...
I promise I’m trying. I’m trying to rise from the ashes and be better. I promise I am trying to feel better. It’s been a struggle. I’ve hid it well though because nobody seems to realise how much I’m struggling. Hanging on by a thread. Don’t get me wrong: as in my previous post, everyone...
I want to say Thank you. Thank you to all of you. I’ve received so many messages. More than I ever thought I would from people checking in, offering advice or places to escape to for a while. Dog walks, coffee dates, ears to rant to and anything in between! People I don’t know very...
*Disclaimer: Since writing this post, the ghostbusters had obviously done a good job because he called me. He retired from ghosting and we had a long talk over the phone. Some of this post may not ring true to me anymore after talking. I understand more now, but that doesn’t mean I respect his decision...
This was a post I needed to get out. My poor womb has become the hot topic of this post. As you will know, my relationship ended. This post isn’t solely about that. It’s about one part of it. One of the reasons (and I’m still not sure if it’s the only reason) that it...